HOLLABACK GIRL!

Nako! Saan naman ako lulugar sa kalokohang ginawa ko dito? Joy helped me do nice templates tapos, nag-experiment ako. Syempre, gumanda ba? Pero, sobrang mandaot pa ba ao sa magulong schedule ni Joy para magpatulong? Naging Teteng Butingting na ako at eto na. Sa wakas, naayos ko na ang mga margin ever at mukhang hindi binagyo ang aking blog na itech.

Puro kabaklaan lang naman ang mga andito so, pangatawanan ko na ang aking pagiging bading tulad ni Loi, Geoffrey, Hardinel, Mckx...asan na ba ang mga ito at nakaramdam ako ng pangungulila sa mga makembot na nilalang na ito?

Ang alam ko, walang bakla sa pamilya ko nong ako ay isang tutuli pa lang. So, ang unang encounter ko with the beautiful world of badings was when I met Mr. Castillo. I believe I was in the 3rd grade when I had him as my Language teacher. Call me weird but, even if he was the strict gay English teacher who everybody hated, he didn't make me nervous at all. I looked at him more linient than the midget Ms. Rabino(with her 5-inch heels). From then on, I met a lot of gay men from the salesperson at the mall to the waiter at the restaurant to the trainer at the gym.

Then, I went to College. There I met my mentor, Fabian Gutierrez. Yes, he is the gayest gay that you can ever meet in your College life. But, a lot of young girls have crushes on him thinking that he's a real guy coz he always dresses professionally, no loud colors or no "pilantiks of the pinky finger." When you look at him you'll be deceived. When he enters the classroom and starts with his lecture, there goes the fantasies of those girls. He is very soft-spoken and mind you, he speaks well, so well that we joke around imitating his style.

All throughout College, I met more of the gay species. I had the privelege to meet the dean of College of Arts and Sciences, the instructors of the department, about 4 of them(special mention to Dindo Danganan who was like a second mentor to me and who never gave me a grade lower than 2.0--the other 3, I'd rather keep their identities).

Then I came across Geoffrey. He majored Mass Comm and was with the group of beautiful girls almost all the way till we graduated. He was mistaken a model by my mother. He takes care of his skin and so obsessed with his own body. He can really be mistaken as a SHE. I adore him not because he's a pretty boy but because he knows what he wants and is confident and comfortabel with who he is.

Edsamail days, I met Max. He prefers us to spell his name as Mckx. He wears the thickest foundation you can ever find on a person's face in our office(no match with Peachy's). He is so gay but he is also a true gentleman. He may be carrying a girl's heart in his chest but his mind still has that trait of a guy who opens doors for us and lets us go first at the ATM...last time I heard, he is still in Dubai.

Sometimes, when I think of them and the good memories they left me, I can't help but smile. They might be out of the norm and they might be criticized or discriminated by other people. But, here are human beings who happen to be gay. For me, being gay is not a disease. It is simply a condition these people are in. But, being a gay man is so different from being a gay woman or a lesbian.

I have a totally different view on lesbians. A gay man, I believe, is easier to accept in this cruel world than a gay woman. Call me a hater or a discriminator against lesbians but, however people define my stand on it, I will not bend. If i have a teacher or an instructor who's a lesbian, I'd be fine with it. But, if I found out that one of my girl friends is gay, I probably wouldn't mind as long as they respect my turf. For all I know, I might be a gay woman. No one can really tell if they are or not unless they develop this liking towards men's stuff or towards other girls. Maybe I am gay. I subscribe to women's fashion magazines. I look at how girls dress and walk and talk on TV. But, if I will base lesbianism with the things I do, I would say all women are gay. So, I'm eliminating that possibility in my life.

There's this girl who I know is developing into a very pretty woman. She is well-loved by her family. She has a sister who loves her to death and who spoils her as much as she can handle. But, there's one problem. Instead of liking boys, she is getting hooked on liking girls. A very pretty girl trying to flirt with lesbians. A very sweet girl trying to hook up with the same gender.

My say on this? N-A-S-T-Y! Hate me for this but, to all those lesbians, good luck but, it's different when you know one who is trying to be with a lesbian. I don't hate them but, I don't like the idea of having one in the group or knowing one. I am so fine with just hearing about them but to personally know one or know a girl they m-u with? Please!

I grew up to be the bitchiest rebel in the family. I learned I was the bitchiest student in school. So, naturally, I can bitch around everywhere if I want to. I have made a lot of mistakes because of my attitude towards life but, one thing's for sure. I won't play saint because some people I know think they are not doing anything wrong. I won't go to church everyday to pray for her salvation.

I don't have problems dealing with gays and lesbians but I might be more bias to gay men...they have my vote. They do stupid things but they still look smart for doing them. No offense to lesbians. They do smart things but they still look stupid. What is with the deep manly voice? What is with the manly walk? What is with the white shirt and polo look? I don't care what people would say. But, in my own opinion, they just don't do it good. If they want to portray as men, then, be a normal man. Gosh! I've seen lesbians who are sexier than the girl they go out with. The same as gay men. I've seen gay guys who have more muscles than the guys they date.

Well, as they say, to each his own. Trip-trip lang yan. I might as well say kung saan kayo masaya, doon kayo. Pero, doon sa kilala kong nagtitrip sa tomboy, sayang ka. Ang ganda mo pa naman. I probably would hate the idea if you get a boyfriend and he makes you cry pero, I'd rather have that scenario than you having a lesbian treat you like trash!